by Carl Gene



Tracks 1, 3 and 5 were Mixed, Mastered, and Produced by Jeremy Chamblee at Tools For War Studio in Springfield, Virginia on July 21st, 2016.

Tracks 2, 4, and 6 were Mixed, Mastered, and Produced by Carl Smith at Smith Studios in Eldersburg, Maryland on July 6th and July 7th of 2016.

These songs were written between the years of 2013 - 2016.

Cover Art by Maxime Sauvage (Paris, France)


released August 17, 2016



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Carl Gene Baltimore, Maryland

Est. December 2012

"Smith is very open about using the music as a conduit for dealing with his depression, but the gentle nature of the music and the melody coming from Smith’s voice create a healing narrative that take the ugly and force it out of the shadows. Even on the darkest days there is sunshine after the rain." ... more

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Track Name: Give
I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about you. I gave and left everything. I let you take it all. I'm dead to you. "I miss you" the three words I'm used to. I let you take it all. But I'm dead to you. I don't want it back, just leave me with some dignity.
Track Name: Crying
I remember crying back on the steps of my front door. Nobody got along and everyone kept fighting. You came outside and promised me everything would be okay ; yet here I am back on the steps crying. I'm sick of this.
Track Name: Autumn
The sound of your voice is like the wind on the first day of Autumn. I have never felt so free. Stay with me.
Track Name: Die // Slow
I want to die slow
Let the rain fall
And let me rot
In the ground.

Don't cry
You'll forget me in a year

When the hole in the ground where my body lay fills,
Leave and never come back.
I'd hate to see you fake pain.
I'd hate to see you fake it.
Track Name: I
Let me go ; I'm just as ugly as the other one. As the years have gone you've abandoned your own family. I haven't felt a connection since October of '10. Were just the abandoned ugly ones. I'm just as ugly.
Track Name: Miss
Covered in dirt.
The tree still moves in the breeze.
I slowly remember the pain I felt on that day.

I felt alone ; I felt weak
I fell ; broken and torn.

I finally had the courage, but saying goodbye was the hardest
I broke down

I wish you were here
I wish it were me

I broke down
I miss you.